I seek the beloved

The people moving in and around me
Become blurred images in the fading sun

The people metamorphose into moving shapes
Strange fractals coming out of nothing and moving into nothing

Amidst the moving apparitions I try to spot the beloved
It seems like looking for a needle in a haystack

In the whispers of the night, my ears wait
To hear your mellifluous voice drown the distant din

And yet all I hear is  distant cacophony
All I see is colorful blurs in the fading light

And yet, I continue the journey into the night
Where dreary darkness seems to be all I see

Hoping to see Sunrise in the form of your love
Hoping to be in the healing presence of your beauty

As I amble around in the darkness unable to find my way
Suddenly I see hope in the horizon by the sight of the rising Sun

Freedom

As the gong struck 12 on that fateful day
There was rejoicing everywhere

For freedom was won from a tyrranical opressor
And a nation as old as time heaved a sigh of relief

And yet now as I look back and contemplate
I realize what it must be like to be without freedom

The unrequited love of a bleeding heart
Seems not to make the beloved symphathetic

Trapped in the prison of longing I know not where freedom lies
Looked upon with rancour is the intoxicated state of all lovers

I ask the beloved again and again to not ignore my presence
But all I get in return is cynicism laced with painful silence

Grieving, wounded and tortured in the fire of longing
I crave for the eternal freedom from earthly pleasures

In the prison of earthly attachments for my beloved, I stand waiting
To be released into the freedom of eternal bliss  

The deep longing!

The lover goes through a million tortures
To which the world, including the beloved is oblivious

I continue screaming in pain, waiting to be heard
To be healed in the soothing presence of the beloved

And yet you hear me not! Why am I subject to this pain?
I cannot understand in this transaction your gain?

Lovers have long sung painful ballads to please their beloved
And yet these ballads are only read by those with unrequited wishes

Writhing in agony and pain, I tread this thorny path
Hoping that your presence will ease this torture's wrath

The hope of being in your divine arms overpowers all other feelings
It numbs the pain and makes me move on and on

The fakir asks me, "How much do you love the beloved?"
"Measure and let me know" . I try to find something of equal proportions

I find that this love is as unbounded as the Universe itself
And is as ageless as the onlooker who created this vast existence

Hear my painful cries at least once, oh beloved!
You will fell the deep longing in my heart

Unrequited wishes

I roam the wilderness in darkness pitch black

Looking for Love and care of my beloved 

The children of the village make fun of me

The people think I am lost to insanity 

I have tried to explain it to all the people I know 

The lover with unrequited wishes is like one without air

I grope around in the darkness looking for your loving presence

The abrasions from manifold thorns do not feel painful anymore

What is more painful is the thousands of unrequited wishes 

That keep pushing me to the ends of the world 

The fakir asks me to abandon all expectations

And earn your love with due diligence 

I am willing to travel all the uncharted territories 

To nurse my wounds in your loving arms

healing balm

Without you this world feels drab
Without you this life feels worthless

Without you the air feels lifeless
Without you the surroundings feel colorless

Without you each and every heartbeat feels painful
Without you even the best music feels like cacophony

Without you days do not seem bright
Without you nights do not feel warm

Losing prudence and judgement I have become
A prisoner desperately longing for you

And yet none of this makes sense to anyone but me
On whose shoulder shall I lean on?

In front of whom shall I cry?
Who would be fit enough to hear about this intense pain

I wait for the healing balm of your beautiful presence
In the infirmary for the love lorn

I wait for your warm embrace,
In the intolerably cold lonely night!

look into the gateways of my soul

As I sat one evening gazing listlessly

At the beauty of the endless night sky

My beloved said "hearken unto me"

And showed me images of my youthful beauty

Lost were those glorious manes, why oh why

In the bygone era was the face so fair and unmarred 

As I sat unable to fathom the meaning of it all

Remembering the good old days when victory was at my feet

Then came to my mind the dark days when things fell asunder

Battered and bruised was I by many a storm

And yet as I returned home shipwrecked and heart broken

Your presence was a healing balm to all my woes

And yet you show me pictures from ages ago

Look deep into my pain filled eyes I say

And do you not see the same set of eyes

Look into the gateways to my soul, to see how deep is my love for you! 

Cottage of Love

I have soared the skies of love
In your blessed company

I have sunk to the deepest depths of agony
In even a moment's seperation from you

The sane people of the town do not understand
The waxing and waning of a lover's heart

None but I can understand this pain
My heart cries tears like rain

Thorniest are the paths the lovers take
To hold the beloved in their arms

However painful the path, the drunkard does not care
He would go to any lengths to lose his sobriety

Stay by me and soothe my aching heart
For all other medicines are sold by quacks

For your sake I drowned my capriciousness in the sea
And built the cottage of love in my heart for you to stay